IN THE SEASON OF FELLOWSHIP

I haven’t written in a while, this would probably be because I had been going through a process of sharpening or probably because I have been learning but I wanted to share something.

I couldn’t get much sleep last night mainly because I had so much on my mind.

Remebering when I decided to go back to church beginning this year I was a mess and was not willing to go through the pain, the heartache and neglect again. I needed love; a love like no other the Agape love I talked about before and I chased after it with all I had and I got that love.

What I probably never mentioned before is how torn and empty my previous relationship left me. Yep very torn and wrecked in desperate need of some divine healing and joy; to see beauty in everything again in which I slowly started seeing.

No I’m not writing about a heartbreak patience I’m getting to the point soon…

A man was nowhere near my mind no where

Feb 8^th I had a diverse dream where I was married and we were going to a place to get back something that was stolen from us and I remember telling my husband I was scared and he told me it’s okay, he held my hand and we went in together that security and love is nothing like I ever witnessed before even though it was just a dream it felt so real.

I woke up happy. I remember  praying to God asking him to bless me with a man who would love God so much because I knew if he loved God with all his heart his love for me would never end and so wouldn’t mine for him, that was the standard set.

Quite some time ago a bunch of ladies were at my house and we were talking about the male characters in our lives (be it boyfriends, friends, brothers etc) and what we see in them that resembles Christ. Others said love others patience others kindness and others simply had this blank faces (-_-)

As time went by and got really close to someone who’s now my best friend (Carmy) God has loved on me using him. It wasn’t easy letting someone break through the walls I had worked so hard to build, it wasn’t easy to tell him “I’m not okay,” or “I’m hurting” or even breaking down into tears before him. It tore me to shreds and every bit of pride I had left was done with. Accepting rebukes wasn’t easy for me and watching God expose something’s in me that I didn’t want anyone to see, broke me  to pieces but he still walked right by my side.

All this reminded me of Christ and the love he has for me and how he never leaves my side especially when I am scared. [Deu 31:6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.] That’s one of the attributes of Christ that he has, love that’s pure and security.

What I’m coming to learn is sometimes God brings people in our lives to love on us, whether for a season or for life. He bring people into our lives so that all the glory goes back to him, his love for us is expressed through his vessels, healing comes in many ways; for me it was through my best friend Carmy. God used him to show me that love is pure and that I can let someone buy me a gift out of a pure heart and I won’t have to pay back in one way or another, that it’s okay not to have everything in control that it’s okay to be comforted and built and taught and ask for help, that I’m precious in Gods eyes and are worth more than Gold and rubies compared.

Maybe today God wants to use you to help someone for his Glory, are you willing?

Luk 10:2  Therefore said he unto them, The harvest truly is great, but the labourers are few: pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he would send forth labourers into his harvest.

Maybe God’s brought someone in your life that you need, will you accept them?

Don’t forget that not everyone sees the beauty in which you carry but there are those specific people Gods picked out for you that actually do. Where you are blind to the truth about who you really are let God use them to show you, where you are hurting let God use them to heal you, where sad let God use them to make you jolly now and then.

Let God use you to make someone smile, let God use you to make someone’s day, let him use you to do something in people’s lives.

LET GO AND LET GOD.

                                                                                                                  XOXO
:) KEEP SMILING

THE SLOW FADE PROCESS

Today I felt the strong need to write but I didn’t know what. I have typed and retyped and retyped until it came to me.

In the process of wondering I went back to my old post {Heart and soul} and that just brought me to a place of mixed feelings. A place of sadness and both joy. I got sad because I could very easily remember how I felt at the time of writing that  blog post and my state  of mind contrary, I was happy because I saw God’s faithfulness and how he brought me out of that place.

I was going to write about loving one another through caring but now I see this going a whole other direction. The slow fade of a believer.

This brings me back to casing crowns slow fade.  

http://youtu.be/QASREBVDsLk

How did I get to the point I was at? Where I felt like my connection with God was not there. A place where I felt enslaved and like God had left me completely. Where I was dying from condemnation. 

Simple: Compromise after compromise after compromise… This brings me to:

Psa 1:1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.

AMP VERSION:   Psa 1:1 Blessed (Happy, fortunate, prosperous and enviable) is the man who walks and lives not in the counsel of the ungodly [following their advice, their plans and purposes], nor stands [submissive and inactive] in the path where sinners walk, nor sits down [to relax and rest] where the scornful [and the mockers] gather.

Verse Break down >> > 

Man that doesn’t walk in the counsel of the ungodly.  

2Co 6:14 Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?

When you start hanging out with the wrong crowd you find yourself drifting further away from God because you are not thinking along the same lines. Your values are different from a non-believer. Hard or soft that’s just true and because of that you will find yourself slowly tripping and justifying all the actions you do that don’t Glorify God.  Ask yourself this:

 Amo 3:3  Can two walk together, except they be agreed?

                                                                                    #SELAH

Or stands in the way of sinners (nor stands [submissive and inactive] in the path where sinners walk)

The problem with this is that not only does your action affect you but it also affects other people who are struggling with sin. You become a stumbling block to them

Or seated in the seat of the scornful.

As the amplified Bible puts it: Nor sits down [to relax and rest] where the scornful [and the mockers] gather.  

This is the trend . You start walking with the wrong people>> you stand in the way of sinners>> finally you sit in the counsel of the wicked… the slow fade process.

This shows how you don’t fall just once but gradually blinded up until you reach that place where you are like “how did I get here???”

The gradual fade that happened to me so fast hand it is something I defiantly would not want to happen to anyone because rock bottom in your Christian walk is the worst place to be. So if you know this is where you are just retaliate and run to you father he will never chase you away and if you think your standing just be careful you don’t fall.

1Co 10:12  Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall.

Don’t give up no matter what

#keep smiling

LETTING GOD WRITE YOUR LOVE STORY

This seems rather tricky and scary to me at first but then I thought about it and smiled :)

Q: How many times have I tried to write my own love story???

A: Hmmmm quite a number of times.

Q: And how did that go???

A: Always ended in a disaster.

Q: Why??

A: Because in most of those relationships God wasn’t in them. Here is the thing if you’re starting something and God isn’t there it’s a waste of time and chances are you will fail or struggle through it. This is what God says about starting things short of his presence.

Psa 127:1 Except the LORD build the house, they labor in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.

Then came the word ….

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Is. 55:9

Jer 29:11 for I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

 The amplified version puts it like this:

Jer 29:11 for I know the thoughts and plans I have for you, says the LORD, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.

 With words like those who can  ever doubt his love? Remember my previous blog about ‘love in truth’ I said God is love  and him being love he knows the  deeper meaning of love and in knowing that he knows what would be your perfect love story in his eyes (NOTE: NOT YOUR EYES BUT HIS EYES)…

Still doubting? lets go way back to the book of love that everyone knows>> Song of Songs

Song of Songs 2:2 as the lily among thorns, so is my love among the daughters.

The writer (Solomon) was inspired by the Holy Spirit to write this part of the book and up till today no love song, movie, poem spoken word can be as dreamy as the words in song of songs.

So how much more can he who inspired the Holy book write your love story??

Trust: believe in your maker and his timing, he knows your desires , wants and needs but you need to trust that in God's perfect timing things will unfold and come to pass. 

There is beauty in God's timing Ecc 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.

Patience: Let him fashion you and increase your capacity to take in a relationship. Take your time in waiting, your love story has already been written it is the manifestation that’s to take place.

Growth: Grow in love with Christ.As you grow in love with him (christ), and he/she grows in love with christ the closer both of you get together. Think of it as a triangle God at the top n both of ya’ll at the bottom while you both grow spiritually you get closer together.

 

 So here’s the thing it’s all done just trust God, don’t be worried about a single thing because his word is alive.He/ She have been set apart for you; there is no rush. :) Let God teach you how to love like he loves and how to let him be the foundation of your everything.

Let him change your heart so that when you actually get into a relationship it will not be because of loneliness but because of the love that God has kept in you for him/her. Also as the letter above states, 'When your love for God  is more than that of your spouse/spouse to be your love for each other will not run out'  and most importantly to complete purpose. Seek him and he will reveal his purpose for you concerning your life and relationship.

Mat 6:33 but seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

So feeling lonely reach out to God…

            When you are lonely and fearful, call Psalm 23

#keep smiling  :)

WHERE IS YOUR HEART??

Prov 26:23 My son, give me your heart

And let your eyes delight in my ways,

Have u ever thought of doing this??

I don't mean half heartedly but fully... I mean taking that risk of your life being turned upside down, losing people you never imagined in the name of the Lord...

U see the Lord has been teaching me that unless I let go of some things and focus on him and learn from him I just won’t progress and won’t complete my purpose...

Jer 29:11

 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

U see God has a plan for us and unlike our fellow human race he wants nothing but the best for us and if we let him he will work in us as he prepares us for what he has planned for us... And it starts by giving him your heart... Trusting him, depending on him, loving him with all you've got.  It not easy to be patient with God because his timing is way different compared to ours but that doesn't mean he doesn't come through...

You see when you go towards him he comes towards you… you have to be willing to reach out to him. James 4:8 (a) Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.

What I'm learning is the depth of God and the order of things... See from the beginning everything was done in order and timing...

Genesis 1 for example the story of creation the Lord created the world in steps.

And so when you completely give God your heart to work on it, he works he does for he does not lie. Numbers 23:19 “God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?” For our God is a God of perfection and of his word...

In John 15 we see how God as a vine dresser and Jesus us a vine and we as the brunches. And God cuts out the brunches that do not bear fruit and prunes the ones that do.

            If you have taken care of roses or had a tree, when you see that part of it is sick or infected the immediate thing to do is cut it off so as it does not infect the other parts or if someone is with something viral they are quarantined until they are well. This meaning they are cut off from the world so we should you ask him who created us to cut out the people who are to lead you to your old sinful life... all this depend on whether you are willing bringing us back o the heart position.

Today where does your heart lie?? Does it belong to God? Or does it belong to worthless desires?

Wherever it is, just weigh your options.

1. Follow the Lord = Forfeit things of the world e.g. love, sex and money simply put (not saying money is bad but prioritizing it before God is, idolizing it is) Prov 1:19 Such is the fate of all who are greedy for money; it robs them of life.

2. Follow your pleasure = An empty life, party fun, immorality but at the end of the day when you are alone... The emptiness that crawls in the darkness screaming and bleeding to be filled... Making bad decision after the other and living in regret... I am not saying I haven't been there I have but I saw the light and CHOSE to follow it...

As long as your follow God he will always lead you. He has led Abraham, Moses the early leaders and prophets and still does it is written...

Prov 3:5-6

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

Ii know one thing that the lord promises that the world doesn’t and that is a fullness and Joy and peace that surpasses our understanding.

Painful truth but also beautiful in its own way.

Keep smiling :)